Big Talk
Aug 28, 2018 19:21:34 GMT
Post by Sonia Nevermind on Aug 28, 2018 19:21:34 GMT
Gonna dump some stuff here from time to time so you can see me at work. Cutting out a bit of off topic stuff also.
Aug 28, 2018 5:25:30 GMT Kirumi Tojo said:
Also please don't think I'm going to be super angry at you, but I would obviously love how you viewed what went down during the round I was voted out.if you have any questions for me feel free to ask as well.
Aug 28, 2018 5:45:00 GMT Sonia Nevermind said:
Hello again Kirumi! I guess you might have some questions for me or something... We didn't really get up to all that much on Mediator tribe after you left. Kind of obvious, considering we avoided that tribal council. I guess the challenge was pretty fun.
Its kind of hard to explain why I voted for you. I guess I may have gotten a weird vibe from some things you said? I mean I wasn't alone in that. But maybe you just didn't convey your tone well? I think there was probably some misunderstanding.
We're gonna be a super strong tribe together!
Aug 28, 2018 6:07:39 GMT Kirumi Tojo said:
I'm very interested in examples from your end then I guess. There are people that did vote for me that should have had legitimately full clarity. If you feel like I wasn't being clear about something, I would like to know what. I would still love to know more on your thought process in regards to it still no matter how hard, because I legitimately feel like you possibly had the clearest picture of it all. I already know who to be angry at, they're not here. Seriously don't worry about that.
It would certainly be ideal to bash through some challenges and not have to do anything for awhile.
Aug 28, 2018 6:25:44 GMT Sonia Nevermind said:
So I felt like we had a decent start getting to know each other a bit... then I feel like something happened and we weren't really talking enough for a while. So that's one thing. Another thing that sort of weirded me out a bit was how you messaged me just to tell me that you wouldn't vote for me? That kind of made me feel anxious because its not something that needs to be said and I would've liked to hear more than that maybe.I don't know that my picture was the clearest! I sort of talked to the other tribe members and there was a lot of distrust for you so we eventually decided to vote you out. I was fine with it because I thought you were more interested in working with Chi and Ibuki than with me. So I guess that made it seem sensible to vote for you.
Aug 28, 2018 6:47:16 GMT Kirumi Tojo said:
The messaging thing is kind of odd. I feel like some part of that is the private messaging problem. There are times where I'm around and you're not and vice versa. Any small talk I would partake in is probably always going to feel odd when it's disjointed. I mostly find private messages to be an awful way to get to know anything about people. It's an awful form of communication for everything. I guess for future reference, something like me telling you I won't vote for you is a very generic statement, but something I can promise. At that time, this was our first vote, and I wanted to open it very positively. I feel like informing someone I won't be voting for them is like a step 1 in relationship building. I didn't want to be like
"Lets ally." Doing that immediately feels immensely more awkward for me because that's like. That's a very out there statement. That comes across to me as really forceful and too much effort. If I can show you I can keep a simple promise, then I am open towards working together more in the future.
I would like to clarify something. The only person to have a genuine reason to distrust me that vote was MIkan. I got bombarded from all sides saying to vote her, she got bombarded to vote me. If I had been presented a different alternative that tribal, I would have considered it. That never happened. We both did what we had to do. I don't believe I lied to anybody else in that tribe once. If you think I have, I would again be very curious as to what it was.
Current time I very much so was interested in working with them in the future. Now I just want to beat them.
Aug 28, 2018 7:23:13 GMT Sonia Nevermind said:
Oh I don't really mind it. Its sort of like writing being pen pals or something! But I guess a lot of people do like to communicate back and forth quickly (I was doing that test puzzle, so sorry if I seem like I took way long to reply). And yeah, you do sometimes forget where you were at before and it comes as being a bit weird. Yeah I sort of misinterpreted that I suppose. Its hard to take things at completely face value in a game like this though. I suppose it does make a sort of sense to do something like that.
Mikan is certainly not to blame in any way so I'm glad you see it that way. We didn't really have an easy boot left after Toko was sent out the door so it was tricky to decide on voting things. I mean I don't think anybody really told any straight up lies during our time on the tribe other than the obvious when people were voting for someone. The distrust didn't really stem from being caught lying or anything, it was more of a tone thing I guess.
Aug 28, 2018 7:45:59 GMT Kirumi Tojo said:
So if I am to understand things. I should be significantly less straightforward with people. That is extremely awkward for me to imagine. If you and I work together in the future, I will be extremely direct because I don't want there to be any potential room for you to misinterpret what I said. It feels weird that people would prefer a more less concrete form of communication.Aug 28, 2018 8:07:39 GMT Sonia Nevermind said:
I'm not saying that you should be less straightforward at all! Honesty and straighforwardness are both great things to have. Its just that people have to decide on whether they believe what you're telling them, and they can sometimes feel that there's something you aren't saying as well. I appreciate you being direct though and I understand you a bit better so I can trust what you're saying. Aug 28, 2018 18:50:26 GMT Kirumi Tojo said:
People should decide to believe a statement that is incapable of being interpreted other ways. It's when you get sweet talked by someone else and you swoon for them that you get blindsided by them. I really do think that you like flair, and I can't provide you with that. I don't have these issues anywhere else but here because people rarely think like that in a normal environment because you would look at me and immediately be able to interpret that I mean what I'm telling you.Aug 28, 2018 19:05:11 GMT Sonia Nevermind said:
I suppose that's true? People with a lot of charisma are often the most dangerous... People who are weird and stuff are appealing to me for reasons but you should just be yourself! I'm starting to really like you now that we're talking about more important stuff I don't know if this is interesting to people but it was interesting to me so I put it here. I don't know if Kirumi is completely genuine about this obviously... I think some of her points are reasonable. Still don't trust her a lot. I mean she has motivation to want me dead. Plus I know its sort of against her whole thing, but it is really had to read someone who is like this.