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I realize this is a general question but in answer to you, I think if you looked back you would realize I did try to openly plot with you, especially on Future Foundation and early in the merge. I don't think you wanted me to know how much trouble I was in. To me that came off as you hiding things from me. Even without malicious motives you didn't let me know Chihiro wanted me out, and you told everything I said to you to Gundham who forwarded it to Sayaka and Chihiro. I actually would have been okay with it and continued sharing with you if you told me what you were doing, like a partner, instead of as a benevolent protector. I think if I hadn't adjusted, if I had told you truthfully that Gundham/Sayaka/Chihiro made me uncomfortable, the merge vote really would have been me.

We might have plotted more openly then you remember, too. I was into the alliance you proposed with Ibuki, supported you when you wanted to backstab her instead. I was super on board the Sayaka train. We openly talked about Yasuhiro/Hiyoko/Sayaka being the next boots. Here in particular I was more cagey, you didn't seem to be considering you were proposing voting off my entire Bronze connection. If Yasuhiro hadn't accidentally gone I would not have been that gung-ho on him going at F8 either. I openly told you people were talking about the Losers as an F3 and actually our talk about Gundham being a threat to you was the basis of my talk with Akane on the subject. And obviously we were pretty open during the two rounds after that. The only part of active scheming I didn't take part in was proposing votes myself until later.

Whatever shadiness I was being accused of to you and apparently despite Gundham's best efforts you never stopped trusting me. If there's one thing I wanted you to see, I thought you underestimated me a little and wanted you to see I could protect myself and had knowledge of my own.

Hindsight being 20/20, I let a lot of people sway my perception of us, Nagito. Looking back I see all of that and I know we were closer than I thought. The not pushing votes thing was always what got me. It made me feel like you always had something in the works without me. I wasn't trying to be a benevolent protector, but I did work to keep you around without always filling you in on everything. It felt like you were just waiting for me to say who I wanted so you could agree and then go do whatever you wanted and a lot of people felt the same, which made me worried you were just trying to say what I wanted to hear. But still I wanted to keep you. I hope this question isn't coming off as rude. I'm trying to ask questions to bring to light the things I see in you guys. I do have a hard choice here and I want everyone to see why I think all of you are optimal choices. But looking back I regret letting people skew my perceptions of your loyalty and Akanes as well.

I'm really proud of you, Nagito. I want you to know that I do see those things in you and I think you played an amazing game, I do. Thank you for being my friend <3

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Please feel free to use this thread to fight over who I love most until deadline

It's not rude, I'm glad you want to understand my different perception. You had the perspective of someone with two strong allies that would cushion you against things going wrong, and an assumed friendship with Chihiro. I had to be more careful then you because my position wasn't as strong until way later.

I did always have something in the works without you. At least twice we voted differently. Even then I didn't tell you what you wanted to hear. I don't think it's possible for you to have trusted me as deeply as Gundham or Kyoko because I had the capacity to do more then them with different people and you didn't know if I would. That's why I can prove to you now our friendship was genuine and I cared about you a lot. I had the ability to walk away from you and I chose not to, while someone like Gundham chose to walk away from you as soon as he had the ability to. It's something I don't regret. Oh I guess that wasn't a question but it is kind of about why you should love me more.